Healing

The past few weeks have been focused on health and rest as I have still been struggling with some infection. After getting a fever (chills,sweats, body aches) I returned to the doctor in the capitol city and she confirmed that there was still an infection. I began some medications but had to wait a few days for final test results. She recommended being admitted to the hospital in my home town so they can administer IV antibiotics and shots numerous times a day. The hospital room was private, much to my relief and Manasa was able to stay overnight with me. They provided food three times a day, typically Mongolian stew, so Manasa brought food from home. I have to admit that the mind takes a battle when it comes to not feeling well and one night I was overwhelmed with frustrations (the medical care being less than my expectation - skipping medications, not taking any vitals, cleanliness standards etc) and began asking the dreaded questions "What am I doing here?". I think any missionary can appreciate that more than once your tasks, responsibilities, or uncontrollable situations will leave you sitting at Jesus feet, again asking for His word as to why you are called to such a challenging position. Looking out my window at the natives going about their daily routines, I was reminded that I may not be called to lead a conference or initiate a revival but I was called to love. And that Love I can do...even when frustrated, sick, wishing for hot water etc...I can still love. I am now home in my comfortable apartment and can't say enough about how my husband has provided and taken care of me. We are still keeping on eye on my health, knowing in the back of our minds that an earlier trip to the USA might be in order. I have one set of pills to finish this week. I know my fever is gone (and assuming the infection also) but am still not feeling myself. I've attached a picture Manasa took at the hospital (even though I wasn't a big fan of his photography at the time).... Always reminded that God is the ultimate Healer and we are only deceived into thinking we have control with our medications, testings and medical knowledge. Yes, He uses those things for His good but we are always dependant on the One who made us.  A big thank you for those who have been praying during this time!