On a personal note....

A bit more insight into some of the things God is bringing up this week involves some addressing of my time in Samoa and some abuse of power held by a few of the leaders. 'Spiritual abuse' is a tricky subject and while I won't go into detail, God has been faithful to point out a few of the battle wounds that remain, including not having a voice. My heart is again breaking for those who were hurt during these times and I have a written a few letters asking forgiveness for not having done more to prevent the breaking down and abusive ways the islanders (and Jenn and I) were treated. I acknowledge that I carry a guilt, or responsibility, that is not mine to carry and this is something I will be working on. I am praying that the distorted example of the Body of Christ will be replaced with truth in the lives of those who exited those times. I cannot plead the excuse of culture or ignorance. Being also under the same leadership does not excuse me from not standing up for them further, or sooner. My leaders here absolutely have a heart for seeing YWAM St Croix be a place for healing, and growing and I know I am in fertile soil for this. I am practicing trusting leadership again, although at times difficult. The bottom line is that my trust rests not in man, but rather in God working through men. I know this will continue to be a journey and God has been very directly speaking and I pray He continues to do so....